I feel like my heart has literally been broken. Like a piece of me was taken. I want my son, my life, and my respect back. I want to move forward and leave all the ugliness behind me. I want to stop telling my son "I'm so sorry, I wanted to give you a better life, it's just not ready yet..." And now I have to apologize to him for being in the middle of this war. I guess for a monster to get back at a mother is to take what she loves most...her son. It makes me so sick and it makes me so sad. I want him back in my arms...where he's been the whole time...until he ripped my son from me.